Hey there, I’m Venkata.

Hey there, I’m Venkata.

This blog is my little corner of the internet — a place where I can express myself freely.
In the real world, that’s not always easy for me. I live with bipolar disorder and anxiety, and sometimes, speaking out feels like trying to sing underwater.

If you’re reading this, I already consider you a friend. 💬❤️

I’ve danced through seven wild rollercoaster rides so far — in 2013, 2014, 2015, 2017, 2019, 2022, and 2024.
Those were the years my mind decided to throw surprise parties called mania.

Imagine this:
One moment, I had a superpower — excitement buzzing through my veins, soaring so high it felt like I could touch the stars…
And just when I thought I was invincible, reality whispered,
“Hey buddy, that’s not a cape. That’s your mind playing tricks.”

No parachute.
Just a long, painful fall.
It usually took about six months to stitch myself back together and find the ground under my feet again.

This strange disorder has made me live all kinds of lives inside one lifetime — from dreams bigger than mountains to nights darker than caves.
But somewhere along the way, it also softened me.
It made me sensitive.
It made me fall in love with solitude, like an old poet who finds magic in quiet corners.

I’m still figuring it out.
Maybe you are too.
And maybe… we can figure some of it out together here.